In our mind
I'm 25 years of age,i
was so scared for alywas in my mind the word hiv/aids. Most of the time
when i've encountered this wherever i am i felt so ashame for myself.
I have a very nice and a loving wife. This december 2005 i will have 2
kids at my side the most thing bothered me most is my past experience
with a girl in manila,philippines when i have a contact with girl whom
i've never known here background at all.durimg the time we have sex at
that night i felt things that for the first time i feel. My feet felt
numb and im wondering because it's just a first time for me feel that
numb of my feet during sex. At that time im still single but i have a
relationship with my wife at that time. She's 2 months pregnant for our
first baby. Honestly i've done such a mistake that maybe my whole life
will be at danger. Im scared for being contacted with that girl because
ive notice that, that girl seems so very lots of problems at her shoulders.
I've always sacred if i am been contacted and also my wife and 2 kids
i'll always thinking this so bad. What will be that future with my wife
and my kids? One year already since it happen until now im afraid of getting
a text for hiv for myself because i dont know what will happen to me if
it's been a devastating results. I have great plans for my kids i want
to them to be educated live with a happy family at theirs sides. For just
being 8 hours with that girl almost my life change at all. I was so scared,
i dont know what to do sometimes. Sometimes i've felt paranoid,lots of
things been change on me.
Sent via Email November 25, 2005 from Phillipines.